TRUE POWER

The Appearance of Things

The Appearance of Things

Mark 10:35-45
© Hilary F. Marckx, all rights reserved

It’s all backwards.
It got turned around.
Something’s totally unsuitable with the system,
it’s broken,
cracked,
stupid,
chipped,
corrupted
and I JUST DON’T LIKE IT!!!
OK,
I’ve read the self-help books.
I’ve read the books on positive thinking.
I know how it’s supposed to work.
I GET TO WIN!!!
FINALLY???
But I don’t.
Not in that way.
The TV
“prosper evangelists”
are wrong!
They lie.
They don’t tell us how to win,
but actually how to lose.
I do not get to win on my terms.
I cannot win by the standards
of pop-psychology.
Bip-bap-bing-and-gollywoggle,
it’s just wrong!
There is a part of me
that would like to crush
all the oppressors,
and
give them an incredibly
brilliant defeat
and show them
what’s what.
Jesus says otherwise.
It seems
if I want true inner growth,
to be what Jesus calls me to be,
if I want my spirit to grow in God,
and I want to develop real,
true, power,
and be really up at the front of God’s line,
get all the perquisites I deserve,
I am going to need
to give them all up.
Actually give them up
and turn them over
to those I might consider less deserving than I —
whatever…
give others my place in line
and move myself
to the back of the column.
This is actually not what I expected
when I first heard
about Christian leadership,
about being successful period.
So, it seems I can knock on the door,
ask for what I want,
seek for hidden treasures,
but then I can actually only get
everything I want
as long as what I want
is the wholeness
that comes from being
engaged in true service to God.
And isn’t it wholeness that we truly desire?
We can grow and prosper bankwise,
but we should not confuse
that growth with heartwise growth.
We do not have to choose,
but we do need to be clear.

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